leaving early

i'm going to contact the travel agency tomorrow to try to change my tix to leave in the next day or two. i am going a little nuts here and it is so quiet and i am so sad and cannot do this under the circumstances. i am willing to entertain comments on whether or not i will really regret cutting this trip short, if anyone wants to add something...but it is isolated and i feel isolated and desperately sad and am worried about what's going to happen if i don't leave. i only see ian and emily here and they are all happy couple and it is very hard to be around them. and plus it is likely to rain until i leave. which means all i can do is sit around and mope and read/play cards/read internet blogs. which i might as well do at home while i can be useful.